I would like to think that I have the ability to keep things in perspective, but I am reminded daily of how often I can lose it. You would think that after battling breast cancer I would make a daily pledge to get up and live each day to the fullest and savor each moment. The truth is though, the farther away I get from my illness, the easier it is to forget to be thankful for each and every day. So often nowadays, I forget. Maybe it is because the trying morning routine just gets to be rote or maybe it is all the shuttling that just becomes so redundant. I am not sure. But two days ago, I was reminded of how precious life and childhood are when my daughter rediscovered her life size Barbie doll that had been tossed in our storage room, abandoned, and minus a leg.
"Mommy can you put this leg back on?" I looked down to see my daughter holding the huge Barbie in one arm and the severed leg in the other. "Oh my." I said trying to act concerned about this large plastic Barbie who I was sure had made it to Goodwill. "Let me see if I can reattach her leg." After a few twists and turns I was able to put it back on the doll. "Come on Mom, let's get her dressed." I followed her upstairs to her room where I proceeded to dress the doll for her in several fashionable outfits. Then Barbie, or Lacey Elizabeth, came to dinner, seated next to my daughter with her own plate and cup. At bedtime, my daughter put on her pajamas and I put pajamas on the doll. "Isn't she cute?" My daughter squealed in delight. "She sure is." I said. Thinking how this doll had made her so happy.
That is when I started to think about perspective. It is all of these little moments in our lives that quickly go by and a lot of days lately I forget to stop and appreciate them. It is like my tennis instructor says, "Jeanne, slow down! Don't rush it!" It is true. When I rush and push through the days I miss so much. My timing is off in life , just like my tennis game. But when I slow down and look around and savor the good stuff; I get it. Perspective. So I will try to keep steady and slow and enjoy.