I have neglected this blog too much as of late. I was overwhelmed with the funeral and the holiday and now it is December. Now that we have made it through that tough time, I am excited for the Christmas holiday and looking forward to seeing the joy on my children’s faces when they see the goodies Santa brings to them.
I did have my appointment with the gynecological oncologist and upon examination she exclaimed, “Oh my, that is sitting right on your bladder.” Yes, it is getting more and more uncomfortable everyday and thankfully I am scheduled for a laparoscopic hysterectomy in January so it is a minimally invasive procedure.
I am concerned about another surgery on the one hand, on the other hand, I will be glad not to have to use the restroom every half an hour. That part is getting old. I am more concerned about my children and how they will hold up. I don’t want them to relive the trauma of my cancer so I am going to spend a great deal of time after the first of the year having conversations with them about the surgery. Hopefully that will go well. I hope that by preparing them better than I did last time, they will be less stressed out.
The other reason I haven’t written is that several days after we returned from the Thanksgiving holiday I got a call from an old dear friend who was a bridesmaid in my wedding.
“I don’t know how to tell you this gently so I am just going to tell you. X has esophageal cancer.” X was a bridesmaid in my wedding too.
“Oh, my God,” was all I could say.
For several days I was really depressed and feeling down but then I started to look at things a little bit differently. I started to think about how precious life is and how I, we, all of us should focus on the things that truly give us joy. When I was thoughtful about it, I realized that there are so many simple things in life that give me immense joy.
A great yoga class, the smell of a good cup of coffee, decorating our Christmas tree, the sun setting on the beach; the list can go on and on. So as I pray for my friend and wish her well on her journey with the big C, I will try to mindful of the simple things in life that can provide comfort and joy each and every day.